I don't heart my body.
I definitely head my body, but I don't heart my body. If I did, it would not have been as hard as it was to take a photo this morning.
There is nothing artistic about this photo. It is taken this way to omit the parts I find least flattering and given a filter to gloss over the parts I don't want you to see.
This makes me sad.
My head tells me how fortunate I am to be gifted with a healthy body that carry's my soul, that carried and nurtured my son and allows me to live in the fullness of life.
My head loves the story board that is my body, the laughter lines that speak of joy, the wrinkles in my forehead that tell of grief, stretch marks from pregnancy, episiotomy scars from birth, surgical scars from five knee surgery's, the scar from my belly button ring, the tattoo on my ankle. My body has many wonderful stories to tell, my head knows it and I'm sure my heart does too, but for some reason it is reticent.
I am not obese but I am overweight. I have a paunch from pregnancy and a muffin top to match. My face is fuller than I like and I crave the extra energy that comes with feeling fit. Despite wanting to change this, I get in my own way and I don't know why. There have been times throughout my life where I have focused on my health and felt wonderful. I don't want to be perfect, I just want to be the best version of me, as defined by me.
So I'm not there. But my head knows something that it's going to teach my heart. My head is going to tell my heart that my body is a freakin' wonderland, it is a roller coaster of ups and downs, lumps and bumps and soft landings and its serves its purpose well.
Do you heart your body?
Such an honest post and I hope that day by day your head is successful in teaching your heart to love your body xx
ReplyDeleteThank you Carly and thank you for the prompt :-)
DeleteYour on the road... the fact you even recognise it is the best thing ever and now you can work your magic that you know is inside x
ReplyDeleteThanks Tessa. That is a lovely thing to say.
DeleteI know exactly how you feel! The hardest part of writing my own post was finding 3 things I like about my body.
ReplyDeleteSo silly isn't it.
DeleteWomen are extremely hard on themselves, about their bodies and lots of other things. Not quite sure why this is so, but it is. I wish you the very best on your journey to loving your body.
ReplyDeleteI think it is because there are so many external messages we get about what out bodies should look like, it's hard not to judge yourself against them.
DeleteThere are always things we are not going to like about ourselves, we are overly critical of our bodies. Having the right mindset is half the challenge.
ReplyDeleteWell I'm half way there then!
DeleteI don't mind my body, there are parts i'd change if i could but i can't so i accept them lovingly. But it's interesting Bree you brought up the 'head', it's the part that can get me into trouble. It tells me things that are better left unthought, and can at times criticise me or get me down. If i could exercise my head the way i do my body, i'd be a lucky lady.
ReplyDeleteI think we just have to continually challenge negative thoughts and replace them with positive self affirming ones until it becomes a habit and something our heart believes.
DeleteI really, really don't heart my body at the moment. But I know it won't be forever, I just need to get my head in the right place to get my body to a place that I can be happy with it again. Thank you for such an honest post. It's good to know that I'm not alone on this journey :)
ReplyDeleteI have the same feeling as you - it's getting my head it the right place to do something about it that challenges me. As well as all the yummy foods that are about!
DeleteIf only I would stop eating all the delicious treats that abound!! Newest follower.
ReplyDeleteConnie from Sadieloohoo
I'm with you on that one Connie! Thanks for following. Lovely to have you :-)
DeleteYou WILL get there, babe. One foot in front of the other x
ReplyDeleteI think realizing you're not there yet is huge part of actually getting there. You'll do it.
ReplyDeleteWell said Bree. I haven't linked up to I heart my body, but if I did I would write something similar. I don't heart my body, but after 41 years I am learning to accept it. :-)
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