After thirteen months of maternity leave I returned to work this week.
Thankfully, I have been able to return to work part-time, working Monday to Wednesday.
Day one was good. I was able to leave the Squishy with his Dad. I never worry when he's with his Dad because I know he is happy.
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| The birthday boy on his birthday bike |
Day three, I was dreading. It was the Squishy's first birthday and I was not going to be there. With a dull ache in my chest for the want of my boy, I went to work and what a blessing, the workplace twat did not show up - small mercies!
I now predict that Thursday will be my favourite day of the week, because it means the start of four days at home with my little man.
I think my child has ruined me for the world, for a short time anyway. My life and priorities have changed. My family are my happy place and it's where I want to invest my time and energy.
I have a grand plan. I'm going to win the $30 million lottery this weekend. Once the cheque is in the mail, I'll be handing in my notice. Work, consider this my pre-notice, my plan is fool proof.
Everyone tells me it will get easier, that the dull ache will subside. I hope so, but I hope more to win the lottery.
Oh Bree I was thinking about you during the week - week one will always be the hardest especially squishys First birthday. Hope you enjoy the next couple of days with him, he has grown up do much!
ReplyDeleteWe survived. He is a little trooper - perhaps tougher than he soppy mother!
DeleteHi Bree! I am feeling your pain - I am starting back at work next week after my maternity leave and am dreading it.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your time with your little squishy over the weekend! :)
Leanne I wish you all the best for this week - may it go quickly!
DeleteI completely understand, I have to return to work part-time in August and I am trying not to think about it! You're right, mortgages don't pay themselves unfortunately. Enjoy your weekend, your time with Squishy will feel even more precious. x
ReplyDeleteYou're right not to think about it. Just enjoy the time you have!
DeleteThat must be so hard :( It is so good you get four days straight with Squishy. I know you'll appreciate them so much more.
ReplyDeleteI can't even contemplate leaving my Little Mister yet. I am luckily able to stay home indefinitely at this point (a blessing I do not take for granted), but I do ask myself occasionally - could I leave him if the right job came along RIGHT NOW? Even for a couple of days a week? And when my answer to myself is still NOOOOOOOO I can't believe myself! How our priorities change.
Good luck with that twat. At least Squishy is there to come home to after crappy days with crappy work people xoxo
Listen to your gut and if you're fortunate enough to have the choice you are lucky. I'm lucky I only have to work three days each week, then four days pretending I'm still a SAHM!
DeleteYep, it's hard going, heading back to work. My brain is exercised in different ways when I'm a work; which I really like. Problem is, though the brain enjoys work, my heart not so much - it's always wanting to be home with my girl! I hope it gets a bit easier and workplace twat keeps some distance and makes it more tolerable x
ReplyDeleteYou've summed it up perfectly. My brain is exercised at work too and I do enjoy that. It's just a shame is comes with a heart ache. And boo to twats!
DeleteI am not sure it actually gets easier or you just get used to the ache. I went back between babies one and two for 4 days a week, which was way too much, but it helped us get to the next stage of our life. I found having goals really helped give me something to work towards and distract me!
ReplyDeleteI understand the twat interaction when you are feeling vulnerable and missing your little man, I encountered two in my team of three people when I returned to work. After asking to get placed into another team and not having it happen I resigned after four months.
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